A Korean friend of mine that I’d met last weekend wanted to hang out with me tonight, so I did. He confessed his feelings for me just now (which I could feel seeping through his actions every so often), and I shot him down. I feel bad for hurting someone like that, but it’s better than me dragging it out, right?
It continuously amazes me how people can be so attracted to me (beyond physical aspects) in such a short time span. I honestly do think that I’m a pretty amazing person, but I don’t like to get my hopes up, so it’s always a pleasant surprise when a guy tells me after only a couple days (or hours) of knowing me, “I like you.” I’m sorry I had to break your heart. :\
I am so excited! This is a music junkie’s idea of heaven! I’m ready to be an ACL Festival attendee for the 7th year ever!
artists who I am dying to see:
- Red Hot Chili Peppers (already seen them live, but I’m down for more)
- AVICII (one word: “Levels”)
- BASSNECTAR
- Weezer (already seen them too, but I’m down for more)
- Childish Gambino (I heard he’s all the craze nowadays)
- Thievery Corporation
- Big K.R.I.T.
- Dev (OMG, do I love Dev)
Find me if you’re into good music and wanna join in!
![My first time hanging out in Oklahoma was in Stillwater on June 7th of last year. After I left, I told myself that I didn’t have much reason to visit again. Then again, I also swore after my first time in Chicago that I’d never visit again, and I never thought I’d want visit a place like Madison at all. Oh, how things have changed. Silly me, catching feelings and “[finding] love in [hopeless places]”.](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4f0kku7w01r1mbqho1_1280.png)
My first time hanging out in Oklahoma was in Stillwater on June 7th of last year. After I left, I told myself that I didn’t have much reason to visit again. Then again, I also swore after my first time in Chicago that I’d never visit again, and I never thought I’d want visit a place like Madison at all. Oh, how things have changed. Silly me, catching feelings and “[finding] love in [hopeless places]”.
love advice over FroYo
A friend of mine from California was visiting and wanted to catch up. I poured out my heart to her over my last “relationship”, and she concluded that it was a traumatizing experience.
I told her that I still cared for my “ex” as a friend, and she questioned why I allow him to be a part of my life.
She put her foot down (for me) and said, “No. He’s screwed you over, and you should remove him from your life.” She was adamant about me removing him from social media, but it seemed so final and harsh, so I told her why I shouldn’t and couldn’t, and she replied, “I guess it’s up to you. Do whatever makes you happy, but I just think that it’s unhealthy. Then again, I’m really cutthroat, and there are so many people in this world, so I wouldn’t let a person like that stay in my life.”
I thought about it, and in every single one of my past relationships, I would always be the first to find an inconsistency, and I’d be the one to initiate breakup. However, my exes would always beg, plead (sometimes cry), and ask me to stay, saying that they/things will change. Before you know it, things either go back to the way they were, or more inconsistencies pop up, and I’ll argue and stamp my feet but not leave. Eventually, they leave, and I’m the one left feeling deserted and heartbroken.
Well this time (mark my words), I’m going to be the one to not only put my foot down but go through with it. I don’t care how happy someone makes me. Self confidence is realizing your self-worth and that you deserve better. For once, I’m going to go with my head and not my heart. For once, I’m going to be realistic.
playing hard to get (or lack thereof)
People have advised me recently to not give a guy that you’re interested in everything:
- Don’t sell yourself so fast.
- Maybe drink less.
- Don’t always be the last girl standing.
- Don’t show that you’re desperate.
- Don’t always follow someone somewhere.
- Don’t open up to people too fast.
- Don’t be the “up for anything” type of girl.
- Be a little more reserved.
I don’t agree with that. My stance is that the right guy wouldn’t take what you give him for granted; instead, he’d appreciate it and give it all right back.
Is playing hard to get always advantageous, or is that just tomfoolery for immature boys?
A friend and I were both going through some romantic disappointments this past weekend.
I don’t think that it’s possible to (nor should you) be happy all the time. Part of life is going through the trials and tribulations that come along with it. It’s only human to feel hurt, sad, confused. To deny those feelings would be to deny our very existence.
However, it’s important to not dwell too long on those inconsistencies.
Today, I was just laying in bed, replaying the events of this past month, wondering what went wrong or what I could’ve done to change things, and honestly, sometimes, there’s really nothing.
I had a rude awakening on my own when I looked at my clock and realized that it was 3:11 PM, 19 minutes before my job interview. I scrambled out of bed, hastily threw on clothes, and rushed out the door, barely making it to my destination.
In my most recent relationship, I’d given up too much of myself, my time, and energy to be with that person. I wouldn’t regret it except that I don’t feel that he did the same. This is a reminder that no matter how involved emotionally I am with someone, to always still just do me, because at the end of the day, all you really have is yourself. Daydreaming about a former, current, or potential love partner isn’t going to pay your bills. It’s not going to save you.
So take the time to think about life and recount what could’ve been or hypothesize what could be… but remember to still live in the present.
(Source: lunabunny7)
Although I didn’t formally make resolutions this year, in a previous post, I listed the things that I wanted to keep in my life, reading being one. This is the first book that I’ve read in a while, and it’s opened my mind to unconventional, riskier ways to live life:
- In the 1930s Andre Kertesz took a picture of a wilted tulip. Once you have seen it, it is impossible to forget.
- We try to make sensible decisions based on the fact in front of us. The problem with making sensible decisions is that so is everyone else.
- Getting what you want means making the decisions you need to make to get what you want. Not the decisions those around you think you should make.
- No one is going to cut off your right arm, take away your motorbike or put you in jail if you don’t succeed.
- Salomon Brothers, the well-known New York investment house, met with prospective clients not once a month or once a day, but three times a day. That is unreasonable. But it works.
- Knowledge makes us play safe. The secret is to stay childish.
- Instead of waiting for perfection, run with what you’ve got, and fix it as you go.
- How you present yourself is how others will value you.
- What is a good idea? One that happens is. If it doesn’t, it isn’t.
- Ideas have to be applied before they are recognized as good ideas. Even a bad idea executed is better than a good idea undone.
- Start your own company, then you can have control of your own destiny. It makes you number one from the start.
- If you want to be in a job where they won’t accept you, just turn up. Let people get to know you. Be a runner. Work for free, if necessary.
- “Astonish me!” Bear these words in mind, and whatever you do will be creative.
“Never regret anything that made you smile.”
Much of the time, we forget to freeze-frame those precious moments in life, the times that made you feel passionate and alive, both good and bad. I couldn’t (and wouldn’t want to) erase those emotion-filled memories of what it was like to love, be loved, and fall in love. My heart will always at least belong to Houston, New York City, Austin, and Chicago. That is all.
Don’t say goodbye; look in my eyes
so that I always will remember.
My favorite HIMYM episode is when Ted meets Victoria at the wedding. Not because it was a really cute episode, but because it made me think of all the memories that had been tainted, all the beautiful “beginnings” that faded with everything that came after it.
“So many things go wrong in life. This is the one thing that never will. It will always be pure, unadulterated, awesome.”
Everyone needs this; a perfect memory that will never be ruined by the bitter reality. We go through so much in a day, in a life. There’s work and school, conflicts that arise in these environment, conflicts that arise between people, and in my case right now, 4 excruciating exams.
I want to make a memory that will forever stay perfect, untouched by the complexities of life. So let the music play while I enjoy the tune, and even though the hardest part will be the end of the song, I won’t forget how it goes. I’ll replay it in my mind and remember how I felt the first time it came on.
